I haven’t been able to sleep at all well tonight (which is why we’re up at four in the morning). When I went to bed, I’d had some contractions. Nothing consistent, but enough to make me wonder if tonight was going to be the night. Anyway, as I lay there awake, I felt the tiniest sensation inside of me (ok, tiniest may not be the right word…you’ve pretty much outgrown your home, so they actually feel pretty big). It was rhythmic and consistent, but not as strong as your kicks.
You had the hiccups…:). It’s so incredibly cute when you do. Every few seconds I feel this little jerk, and sometimes, they make you mad: I’ll feel the little jerks in sequence, and then you’ll throw in some extra jabs, like you think you’ll be able to make them stop if you kick hard enough.
With tears in my eyes, I just held my hands on my tummy. I just couldn’t get enough. You see, love, it hit me that this very well could be the last time I ever get to feel you have the hiccups. As anxious, nervous, excited, and joyful as I am for you to be born, I praise the Lord He allowed me to stop and feel them one last time.
Baby Girl, you can’t come fast enough. But though I am so ready, I’ll hold onto you for as long as I get you. You have no idea how much I love you.
Father, be with my baby girl today. Continue to keep her safe and strong and warm inside of me. Let me treasure these last few times with her, and begin to prepare us both now for the joyous relationship we are about to know. Sanctify us through one another: let us know love, and mercy, and grace, and let us be so quick to grant it. Help me to be her Mommy…and help us both to be daughters who bring You glory.
I love you, Selah Rae (and in a few years, I promise, I’ll teach you how to cure the hiccups :),
Mommy
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I am so excited for you, Lacey! You are already such a wonderful Mommy. I promise it will be equally adorable (and frustrating for her) next week (!) when she gets another fit of hiccups and you can actually see her. Such fun times ahead! :) Praying for you. (And I LOVE her name.)
ReplyDeleteOh Lacey, you are going to be the sweetest Mommy!! I love that you are taking it all in and writing about it so you can remember it forever! Selah Rae, you are going to love this life! Have a great day today!
ReplyDeleteI love you!
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I swear you should write children's books. You have such a beautiful way of expressing things. I just want to bawl reading this, because I remember that feeling. Ethan got the hiccups EVERY day at least once a day, and one day he got them 5 times! I loved it! I agree with the rest, you already are a wonderful momma.
ReplyDeleteYou have no idea how many times in your life you will implore the Lord to keep your girl 'safe and strong'...as for the hiccups....GIVE MY THOSE!!!!right? That's how your daddy cured my little girls when they had the hiccups!
ReplyDeleteIts beautiful and I love it. You so gracefully put it into words.
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